My rock bottom was realizing I might not make it out alive from the home I was sharing with my then-husband.
But that was my wake-up call, not when it all started.
For almost a decade I'd been in and out of therapy sessions. I tried medications, self-help books, everything without ever even getting close to healing.
At my best, I was feeling good enough to fake it through.
At my worse, I would lay in bed trying to remember if I'd showered that day or not. Or getting somewhere and having no memory of how I got there. Then I would sit there, anxiously rubbing sanitizer or lotion in between my hands.
My doctors told me my PTSD was chronic and that I had to learn to live with it. Or "cope" with it.
The way I was living my life, and the way many people live their lives, is not really living. It's just trying to survive.
But I didn't want to live like that anymore.
What saved me from my abusive marriage and later, healed me from the trauma I'd been through, was the knowledge I'd been taught since I was a little girl.
My peoples' ancestral knowledge.
You know how 'they' say you have to hit rock bottom before you do something about it?
Mari mari, my name is Mandy Martini Chihuailaf, Mist spreading over a lake.
I'm an Indigenous teacher of the Mapuche Nation, and an Aztec (Southwest) and maayaʼ tʼàan (Yucatec Maya) descendant. A survivor of generational trauma, sexual assault, and domestic violence.
For the past 5 years, I've helped people around the world (SLG members in over 35 countries now) heal by teaching them to understand their bodies and the natural process of survival and healing.
What I teach is based on Native science, the generations of healers in my family, our Elders, knowledge-keepers, and over thirteen years of my own research and lived experience.
What many people don't know is that we're built to release these survival responses.
It's a natural process for your body.
The problem is, you've been taught to not trust your body and to suppress your instincts.
Think about it. Have you ever bitten your bottom lip in an attempt to stop your tears from coming, or tried to stop your body from shaking when you get angry or nervous?
We're told to rationalizes and control everything we experience in life, so the moment we go through something, without realizing it, we stop our body from doing what it's supposed to do.
And then we have to live with the consequences of that.
But it doesn't have to be like that.
Ute Lands (Colorado)
When you enroll you get lifetime access to SLG. I'm constantly learning more and finding ways to translate and apply our traditional knowledge to how we live in Western societies. And this community is my family, so as I grow, I'm taking you with me.
To us, ceremonies are very important. But besides ceremonies, we also arrange talking circles that allow members of the community to come together and not only support each other, but help reinforce our knowledge and practices.
That's why, to offer you support and community, we have virtual talking circles.
I’m falling in love with this course and it’s literally changing my life. I’m currently super sick and unable to do a lot of things so this course is what I can look forward to everyday.
Destiny Kipp, Florida
SLG appeared at exactly the right time for me. I was struggling with issues relating to divorce and an extremely unhappy marriage. During the course, I also uncovered old traumas that I had forgotten/suppressed and was able to work on as well.
I am incredibly grateful for the knowledge I've acquired and to Mandy for creating this course and for her support. It has been a life changing experience, I would recommend it to anyone.
Huge thanks and so much love xo